God in my Heart....

For the last few days, I have been feeling a bit lost. but eager and curious. I don't know if that actually makes logical sense, but who cares about logic when it's about emotions?

Many factors contributed to it, including conversations about God from various sources, meeting new people and gaining new perspectives, as well as reacquainting with familiar faces and getting to know them in a different light. Many thoughts, many energies and vibes - sometimes overwhelm me. Some conversations put energy into me, and some - well, let's say they are interesting.

Then I realised something - amongst all the chaos and confusion, there is one constant in my heart. One thought that does not confuse me or exhaust me - that is the thought of my loving and heavenly father. God is a constant. You always open my heart and give me the right wisdom, desires, aspirations and feelings at the right time. You are so loving that, despite all my thoughts and actions, you always bring me home.

I feel lonely sometimes, unable to express myself the way humans want to hear it. I find myself sidelined in conversations, corrected and small, but when I talk to you, I always feel heard and safe. The peace and the calmness I feel after I speak to you, my God, is a miracle in itself. Every bad thing washes away.

I feel loved and understood and fearless. I feel you have called me by name. Sometimes, talking to humans about spirituality, I feel out of place, but you always make me stand my ground and believe in myself. You hear all my nonsense and give me sense in return. You pull me to talk to you every moment, and everything works out when I talk to you. Sometimes on days like this, I feel you next to me, guiding me on what to write. I just hope more and more people who need you, feel lost or feel ike a misfit, could just talk to you once...

I do know, however, that you have given us a choice to reach out to you. I pray that someday, the entire world will know this magic and surrender. There will be no hatred and only love. There will be no need to fight, and people will not feel like killing each other because they have felt you, and it feels so good that hatred has no place. I pray that no one would ever do anything for their glory but everything for yours.

I pray that each heart on this planet feels you in it, the way I feel you. That nothing seems impossible and that no soul feels depressed, sad or lonely knowing you are walking right next to them. I pray....

Urmi